"Poetry is nearer to vital truth than history."

wow it's been so long....

Fri, 15 May 2009 17:32:25 GMT

God, it's been so long since I've written in this thing. I miss everyone so much =(. Lets see...where shall I begin....

I met this amazing guy, actually I've known him for awhile it just never occured to me how much I really liked him until almost 2 months ago. I met him on this online RPG (role playing game) that I've played for about 2 years now. He's been a really good friend and I've helped him out with his gfs and such that he's had on the game (he's never had a REAL gf...that is until me) and he's always been there for me when I needed someone to talk to about anything. He's a little bit of a nerd but who isn't that plays RPGs. lol. His name is Jarod, he's 28 (yea I know an 8 yr age difference from me) and lives in Washington (2 states north from me). I absolutely adore him. My current icon describes him perfectly. He's an absolute gentleman and truth be told I think I love him. But he is scared of the feelings he is having about me since I am his first REAL gf. And honestly I'm afraid of how fast I'm falling for him too since I've only met him once in r/l. I went up to Washington to meet him and we had an amazing 2 weeks together. I met his parents and sister and they like me. XD and just between us, I can see myself spending the rest of my life with him; and the way he talks to me about some stuff, I think he feels the same. He just wants to get to know me better before, i guess, commiting to his true feelings. Which is completely understandable since I am in Cali and he is in Washington. If I had the money, a job up there lined up, I would SO move up there right now! I love Washington in general and the fact that he lives there just makes it a million times better. I've never felt like this before, I mean I thought I loved my ex but, BOY WAS I WRONG! I have never felt love like this before. It makes me cry when he says that if I would find someone down here that makes me happy that he'd be ok if we broke up. I don't think he realizes that I only have eyes for him. I don't even look at guys the same way anymore. To me they are just friends/potential friends; nothing more. And I know there's nothing I could say to him that would make him understand that. -sigh-

In other news....my parents bought their first house! We're going to move into it next weekend!!! Everyone is really excited, I guess I am...but I always hated moving so I guess that's why I'm not as excited as everyone else is. I moved a lot when I was younger and I guess in a sense this just feels like moving into another place we're renting. Maybe the fact that it's OURS hasn't sunk in fully. lol

Oo...I got a job, FINALLY! But, the people there are fucking assholes! Got my cousin fired for a fucking rumor. GRRRRRRRRRRR! So I'm planning on finding another job ASAP so that I don't have to work there anymore and deal with backstabbing people.

Uh....I think that's about all that's happened in my life recently. Nothing else really note worthy. lol. I'll add a pick of Jarod in a cut so you guys can see him.

Love ya all!
Courtney

For all my fellow Californians....

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 09:51:39 GMT

From Now On.....

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 14:47:26 GMT

LJ Friends and Real Life Friends <33

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 12:06:10 GMT

If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

Writer's Block: What Makes Your Friendship Work?

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 07:14:03 GMT

What admirable qualities attract you to your friends? What glues your relationships together?

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What attracts me to the friends I have are how they act around me and other people they know. I like it when my friends act the same around me and the people they know (or maybe a tad different if the other people are family and what not). I love it when they include me in activities they are doing, even when they're with their significant other. I hate being the third wheel and when they don't treat me as one, that just makes me love them even more (as a friend of course lol). My friends are special people to me, people I would do anything for, and I want to make sure that if I needed them that they'd do anything for me as well. I've been stabbed in the back countless times by people I believed were my bestest friends and I'm sick of it. I don't want that to happen again, so yeah I can be untrusting when it comes to my new friends, but once you prove to me that you are worthy of my trust; you have the best ally on your side. I will do anything in my power to help you when you're in trouble, I will come get you if you are in trouble and can't get someone to pick you up, I will give you an alibi if you need one, I will even lie about where you are if need be. I am the best ally or the best foe a person can have. It just depends on how you prove your worth to me. The worst thing a friend can do to me is become my best friend and then prove to me that I put my trust in them blindly. They will wish they never met me then. I can be the biggest bitch you've ever met if you cross me! I've had/have enough bullshit in my life, I don't need anymore.

Just a warning....XD
Courtz

Writer's Block: Gender Bender

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 19:25:36 GMT

Do you ever want to be of the opposite sex? If so, what attracts you to the idea? If not, what repels you?

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Lol! I want to be male for about a week out of every month....y'all know what I mean. Period....the fact that males don't get that makes me envy them soooo much. I hate getting it because I just get weak, tired, depressed, moody, disgusted with my appearance, etc etc etc. I just want to not have it but still be able to have kids, ya know? But otherwise I like being a chick. We are more mature than guys, we don't sexually harrass dudes we think are hot. We tend not to be murders (though shoplifting is another story...lol) or hurt other people. We are sympathetic towards others, and we're all around peaceful people. And yes, there are some chicks who are just complete bitches and who should just be guys because they act like them. Sleeping around, cheating on significant others, lying to everyone they know, hurting people both physically and mentally, acting immature, etc etc etc. But those are rare to find, just like it's rare to find gentlemen these days.

Sigh....

Writer's Block: A Last Day Well Spent

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 18:38:25 GMT

If you knew it was your last day on earth, how would you spend the time?

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Hmm...if I was going to die at the end of today, I'd probably call up everyone in my phone to tell them that I was going to die and that if they wanted to spend it with me they better get their asses over to my house and come see me. I'd call my boyfriend up and be like, "Get your ass over here now! I'm going to die at midnight and I want to spend my last day with you." (Yeah yeah, I know, how romantic. lol) I'd go bungee jumping, sky diving, have a huge ass party with a bonfire at the beach, and die watching the fire (hopefully in my beau's arms). My last day would be awesome! I'd live it to the fullest and not let anyone stop me from doing everything I've ever wanted to do (that I can do in a day at least).

I'm sure I'd be hella depressed for like the first hour or so, because come on, who wouldn't be. You just found out that you have less than 24 hours left to live. I think that would make anyone depressed, but I wouldn't wanna waste my last 24 hours dwelling on the fact that I'm going to die, I'd want to waste those last hours living it to the fullest. Being able to skid into St. Peter at the gates of Heaven and being like "That was one hell of a ride!" and not caring whether I get into Heaven or Hell because I had an awesome life on Earth. That's how I would spend my last 24 hours of my life. Having a fucking party, and everyone is invited!!!

Writer's Block: Nicknames & Reg. Post: WOOHOO

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 06:21:08 GMT

What's your nickname, and how did you get it?

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I have a ton of nicknames; Court, Courtz, Court Court, Corky, Skidoo, Gnome, Munchkin, Shorty, Youngin, etc. Court is obviously a shortened version of Courtney, Courtz is a name Cassandra gave me because she did...I don't think she really has a reason lol, Court Court is a name a friend gave me in school because she accidentally called me that and we laughed so it's like an inside joke, Corky is a name my grandfather calls me because my little cousins usually can't say Courtney so they end up calling me Corky. Skidoo is a name my dad calls me...he's called me it ever since I was little so I have no idea how I got that nickname. Gnome, Munchkin, Shorty, and the other various 'short' nicknames are because I'm short...I'm 4'11" and so my friends all call me 'short' names because of that. I used to get offended by them, now I'm just used to them and really don't care. Youngin I got from my friend Cole because I was (and still am) the youngest person in our group of friends. Everyone else is 2-4 years older than me, so I'm the 'youngin' in the group; thus why he calls me that.

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Ok, so we found out what Athenea is having (in case you didn't know, she's prego)....she's having a baby boy!!!! Name is most likely going to be Aiden Michael and he's due at the end of October. Maybe he'll be a lil' goblin (born on Halloween); Athenea would love that (after delivery) because Halloween is her favorite holiday! I'm just so excited! I wanted her to have a little girl because I wanted to buy all the cute girl clothes for her but I'm excited either way. He's going to be spoiled rotten! and yet still be raised a gentleman because both Athenea and I won't have it any other way. lol.

Then to add to the good news...this may seem pety to some of you not in touch with your inner child...I won two jack-pots at Chuck E Cheese (a kid play place with games and play structures) today when I was out with my cousin, her two kids, her friend, and her friend's kid. I won 24 tickets on the first jack-pot and 300 on the second! I couldn't believe it when I won the 300 one. I'm usually not that lucky when it comes to things like that. I have no idea what made this my lucky day, but I'm just glad it did. Though those tickets won't do anything to help my life any but still. lol.

Maybe Aiden will be my lucky charm when he's born. Hmmm.... I guess we'll have to wait and see.

Thoughts

Sat, 24 May 2008 16:37:55 GMT

My best friend Athenea is having a major crisis in her life right now. I'm not sure what's up but I've been reading her LJ posts and it seems like she's gone off the deep end. I'm really scared for her right now. I have to work today but if she's still in Cali (she moved up to Oregon already) I think I'm going to ditch work and go talk to her. She sounds like she could really use a friend right now. I hope she gets back to me in time. I really wanna help her, if she lets me. I'll even take BART (it's like the subway for those of you not familiar with what BART is) out to wherever she is. But she has to get back to me first. God I miss her and I also am really worried about her. She needs to talk to someone that will listen to her. And she really has no one like that in Oregon or here besides me. I had no idea she needed me that badly. God why don't I go on here more often!!! I feel like I've abandoned her when she desperately needs my help, or at least my ear. If she doesn't text me back by 9:45 I'm going to call her. I need to know what's up, or at least know if she wants me to come out there. Because I will, I know she needs me, even if she says she's "fine".

DAMNIT ATHENEA!!!! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU NEEDED ME!!!!!!! I WOULD'VE BEEN THERE IN A FLASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Court

EDIT:
Damn! She's on her way back to Oregon! I really wanted to see her today. I wish I could go to Oregon right now with her so that she has a friend with her, for at least a week. But I can't. I just started working at my job and I can't call in and be like, "Yeah, I'm going out of the state for a week. I'll be back next Monday." Because they are so going to keep me while I'm away. Ugh, I wish she wouldn't leave yet. I wish she would just stay longer. But my wishes never come true, NEVER! Gah I'm just so aggravated with my life right now!!!

"Suspicion always haunts the guilty mind." - William Shakespeare

Mon, 12 May 2008 02:33:42 GMT

Should I feel guilty for what I did this morning? Should I feel guilty for having a friends with benefits? Should I feel guilty for being 'ok' with having that kind of relationship? Should I?

That's the only thing bothering me with that relationship, should I feel bad for having that kind of relationship? I personally am 'ok' with it, but subconsciously I am screaming at myself "It's immoral, degrading, and sinful!". But I think that's because of how society sees that kind of relationship and how I was raised, that sexual relations should only be between a man and his wife or at least between significant others (and I don't fall into either of those two catagories with doing this). I guess I could stretch the rules with saying that he's my ex, but that's an extreme stretch.

So while I personally don't care and am 'ok' with it, I'm screaming at myself for being 'ok' with it. I mean basically everything we are doing is what we did when we were in a relationship. We talked on the phone and whenever we saw eachother we had sex. This basically the same thing just without the title of bf/gf. Though I guess I'm just afraid I might turn into Staci by doing this. She does this all the time, even when she has a bf. But then my subconscious is screaming at me again saying "You'll never be like her, you care too much about other people's feelings!" So I guess that's one thing I should listen to from my subconscious.

Who knows. Any thoughts?

~Courtz

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Fri, 09 May 2008 04:02:23 GMT

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Writer's Block: Life Changing Experiences

Tue, 06 May 2008 06:40:44 GMT

Name three life-changing experiences you went through and explain why you chose those experiences in particular.

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Three Life Changing Experiences:
     1) My sister's birth
     2) Meeting Amber
     3) Most recent friend betrayal

[1]
Well obviously my sister being born was a life-changing experience since I went from being an only child to being the eldest. I always wanted a sibling (mainly because my cousin would call me spoiled since I was an only child even though I wasn't...lol) and once I found out that my mother was prego I was hella excited. When my mom's water broke (she had actually scheduled a c-section for 2 weeks later) I was all excited that my little sister/brother was finally here; that was until I learned that I wasn't going to be allowed to come to the hospital with my mom and dad. I was hella pissed when I learned that, imagine - a 9 year old pissed at 2 or 3am because she couldn't go to the hospital with her parents to see her new sibling. It was hilarious; but they dropped me off at my aunt's house on the way to the hospital and I stayed up and pouted the entire morning until I was able to go to the hospital to see my new baby sister/brother. I got even more pissed when I found out that I wasn't the first person to see her (besides my parents); my grandparents were actually the first people to see her. But once I saw her, I must say I was amazed! She was tiny!!! I mean a preemie diaper didn't even fit her because it was too big! They had to use a face mask to cover her because she was so tiny! But she was beautiful, and I loved her. It took me like 2-3 months before I felt comfortable to hold her, and that was just sitting down. I was always afraid that I would drop her, so I didn't want to hold her just in case I did drop her. But when I finally did hold her, and felt comfortable holding her, I never let my parents take her out of my arms. I loved her, and I still do; no matter how much she annoys the living day lights out of me!

[2]
Usually a person doesn't really change me or makes a life-changing experience in my life; but Amber did and still does today. I met her my freshman year in high school. We were in a modified P.E. class together and she instantly took me under her wing. She later told me that I reminded her of herself at a younger age; very naive and innocent and she wanted to protect that and also teach me things that I had never learned and probably would have never learned if I hadn't met her. She taught me about how people can manipulate you to do what they want, how I don't have to please everyone, and how what I'm doing is terrific as long as I am proud of the work I put into it. She taught me how to put my all into the work I did, whether I liked what I was doing or not. She always looked out for me and was always there for me when I needed her. She forgave me when I did something wrong that I thought she would never forgive me for, she treated me like an equal and not just another person. I've never met another person like her, at least not one who didn't end up just using me in the end. She is my best friend and I don't know what I would do without her. I know my life would be completely boring and sheltered if I had never met her - that's for sure!

[3]
I thought I had learned from my past friend betrayals. The countless times I've been used by people I thought were my best friends only to find out that they were just using me or had alternative motives for being my "friend". I became very cautious about who I trusted and who I surrounded myself with. I thought I had found a good, no great friend in Staci - only to find out a week ago that she was only using me. That she wasn't a real friend, that she told my secrets to people I didn't know, that everything she told me was a lie. I was shocked, I didn't want to believe it was true; and at first I didn't. I believed her when she told me what I heard was a lie, I believed her. But then she betrayed herself, she confirmed something that I had heard from a third party. Something I hadn't confronted her about, something she wasn't able to cover up with one of her lies. She used me for rides, for money, and for a cover when she needed to sneak out. She talked to me, but never listened; even when she said she would. I can't believe I didn't see it, maybe I just didn't want to see it since I had shut out most everyone from my life except for her. Luckily Amber came back into my life or I would be friendless or worse - still listening and believing her lies. But Staci has taught me a valuable lesson, that my defenses aren't as strong as I thought they were and that manipulative people can still bypass them. That I need to learn to differentiate between the fakers/users and the true friends. Because I deserve to have true friends since I have always been a true friend to all my friends, even those I believed were friends.

Bored...sounded interesting...soo

Fri, 02 May 2008 20:29:12 GMT

What personality trait has gotten you in the most trouble?

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I would have to say that it's either trusting people too much or forgiving them too easily when they back stab me. I've often been called naive and too trusting. I don't know how many times it has screwed me over in the end, but I do know that it's hard to trust people now. And when I finally do start trusting someone, I usually will get screwed over in the end; which was proven by Bailina most recently. Something I've actually learned from being screwed over many many times, is not to forgive those that have broken my trust. Or to forgive them, but not take them back as a friend or something more.
I've talked about this "problem" before with other people, they tell me not to give up, that someone will prove to me that they are trustworthy. But so far, I've only found one friend that's trustworthy. One friend that hasn't screwed me over, even when I screwed her over (we've moved past that and don't speak about it anymore...even though I constantly feel guilty about it). I haven't meet a guy that I've dated that hasn't screwed me over in the end or broke my trust. Which is one of the reasons, I think, that I am tired of relationships/dating/love because it always screws me over.

Prolly another one would be depression/pessimistic attitude. But I think everyone has that problem around my age.

~ Court

How interesting...and yet true

Fri, 02 May 2008 20:14:31 GMT

You are The Tower

Ambition, fighting, war, courage. Destruction, danger, fall, ruin.

The Tower represents war, destruction, but also spiritual renewal. Plans are disrupted. Your views and ideas will change as a result.

The Tower is a card about war, a war between the structures of lies and the lightning flash of truth. The Tower stands for "false concepts and institutions that we take for real." You have been shaken up; blinded by a shocking revelation. It sometimes takes that to see a truth that one refuses to see. Or to bring down beliefs that are so well constructed. What's most important to remember is that the tearing down of this structure, however painful, makes room for something new to be built.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Proditio

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 16:53:39 GMT

i can't shake this feeling of betrayal. the other day i got this text fwd. from my asshole of an ex, but a couple of minutes later i got the same text fwd from my "bff" bailina. now they have no friends in common that she would get this text fwd from that she would then send to me. now i would understand if maybe i got it from her the next day or something like that. but i got it like literally 5-10 minutes after i got his. i don't understand. she knows how much of an asshole he's been to me (and continues to be). she's been there through all the tears he's made me cry. the only conclusion i can come up with is that she's talking to him and got the text from him that she then fwded to me. and when she talks to guys she doesn't just talk to them she "talks" to them. meaning she's a complete flirt to the verge of being a slut. there are only about 2-4 guys she talks to that she doesn't "talk" to and that's either bc they're gay or bc she dated them before.

i asked my ex if he's talking to her, he said no. but i don't know if i believe him. she hasn't answered me. i haven't talked to her in over a week. and the fact that she hasn't answered me gives my suspisions that much more proof. she avoids the truth, especially if it hurts someone she "cares" about. and she's the one that always says that she would hate it if she caught her bff kissing her ex/bf. this is basically the same thing! she knows how much of an asshole he is, how much he hurts ppl, how much he lies, everything. but she's talking or "talking" to him.

i can't stand it. i don't kno if anything she ever said to me was true. i don't kno wut to do. i don't kno if i should just say fuck her and never talk to her again. or if i should confront her and hear her story, even though i kno she'll lie and say she isn't talking to him.

i'm just so done with this town. i want to run away. i want to go away. someone rescue me

This was way overdue

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 02:09:38 GMT

ok, so i think it's time i went back to updating you all on how fucked up my life is right now. well it's not really all that fucked up...more confusing really. but i need to get some things down and what better place than lj, where i can get some feedback from ppl. (btw...my bffs' names that i put here are nicknames and not their actual names)

so one of my best friends (bailina) has been really distant from me lately. i'm not sure why, and for some weird reason...i don't really care. she's been annoying me lately. maybe it's because of her new bf - a really fucking annoying, perverted dude that i want to strangle if i spend more than 5 minutes in a room with him - or maybe it's the fact that she's starting to go back to her old ways of "playing" and sleeping around a lot; or maybe it's a combo of both. everyone knows i don't respect girls who sleep around a lot (same with guys), she even knows this and yet she still does it. whenever i'm around her i feel like i can't talk intelligently with her or even about the future. i always feel like i'm babysitting when i'm with her. but i love her to death (friend-wise)! i don't know what to do.

now my other best friend (athenea) has been really close to me lately. we go through our phases of being really close for awhile and then being distant for one reason or another (never by chose). she's offered me to live with her many times and i've always said "yeah yeah, but..." and come up with some lame excuse. but now i really have no excuse and i want to move out of my house. she's offered me to live with her again once she gets this house in another town about 45 minutes from where i'm living now (cross your fingers that she gets the house!). but i haven't told my parents that i might possibly move nor have i told bailina. my parents will come up with some good excuses as to why i shouldn't move yet and/or move in with athenea (they don't like her all that much). bailina and i have been planning on moving in together since senior year, but for the past couple of months i just cant seem to picture us living together. she constantly quits jobs because she "doesn't get along/like her manager(s)" and how are we supposed to pay rent if she is constantly looking for a job?! she's been really irresponsible of late and i really don't want to have to possibly support the entire household myself.

now i know i should probably stay home with my parents longer, so that i can save up some more money. but i just can't stand it any longer at my parents'! they're driving me insane with their constant questioning and their constant trust issues with me. i mean i can understand to a point, i have given them reasons not to trust me but sometimes their demands go WAY beyond that.

i know they're going to be mad when i say i'm moving out and i'm basically packing up my stuff at that moment and moving out within the week. but i want to make my own mistakes, i want to learn from my own mistakes and not learn from what they say. you can only learn so much from what your parents tell you. at some point you are going to have to leave the nest and experiment on your own. i'm 19 years old, i believe it's time i left home to try and find my own path in the world.

hopefully i won't make a complete and utter fool of myself and have to come crawling back to my parents. i hate when they say "i told you so". i hate it i hate it i hate!!!

so i'm just really confused about bailina, moving, and just life in general! i wish there was a reset button on life! god wouldn't that be nice!!!!

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 13:50:54 GMT

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, ~~shaping your spring~~. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

1) The Last Night - Skillet
2) I'm Not Jesus - Apocalyptica ft. Corey Taylor
3) Made Of Scars - Stonesour
4) Alcohaulin' Ass - HELLYEAH
5) Self Inflicted - Smile Empty Soul
6) Lip Gloss And Black - Atreyu
7) Seize The Day - A7X

don't feel like tagging anyone else so do it if u feel like it or just enjoy my choices =)

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 16:10:52 GMT

Find Out Which Disney Girl You Are!
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You scored as Belle

Dancing furniture, singing spoons, and a man who needs a serious haircut - sound familiar? Well it should! Belle was a very independent spirit with alot on her mind, much like you are! But in life, there is a needed balance - learn when to speak your mind, and when to hold it back. Sometimes offending someone isn't the best way to go!

Violet

100%

Belle

100%

Jasmine

88%

Mulan

79%

Aurora (Sleeping Beauty)

71%

Megara

67%

Jane

67%

Snow White

67%

Pocahontas

63%

Ariel

63%

Alice

58%

Cinderella

42%

Tinkerbell

38%

Esmerelda

21%

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 01:45:41 GMT

“Evil Angel”
by: Breaking Benjamin

Hold it together
Birds of a feather
Nothing but lies and crooked wings
I have the answer
Spreading the cancer
You are the faith inside me
No
Don't
Leave me to die here
Help me survive here
Alone
I don't remember
Remember

Put me to sleep evil angel
Open your wings evil angel

I'm a believer
Nothing could be worse
All these imaginary friends
Hiding betrayal
Driving the nail
Hoping to find a savior
No
Don't
Leave me to die here
Help me survive here
Alone
Don't surrender
Surrender

Put me to sleep evil angel
Open your wings evil angel
Fly over me evil angel
Why can't I breathe?
Evil angel (2x)

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"Everybody’s Fool"
by: Evanescence

Perfect by nature
Icons of self-indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame, don't you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled

Look, here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh, how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she
Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

Without the mask, where will you hide
Can't find yourself, lost in your lie

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

It never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled
It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool

Oo...smexay!

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 03:25:57 GMT

-List ten fictional characters you wouldn't kick out of bed (in no particular order):

1. John Amsterdam (Amsterdam)
2. Dr. Gregory House (House)
3. Sam Oliver (Reaper)
4. Jessica Rabbit
5. Captain Jack Sparrow (Pirates of the Caribbean)
6. Remus Lupin (Harry Potter)
7. Juandissimo Magnifico (Fairly Odd Parents)
8. Jane Smith (Mr. & Mrs. Smith)
9. Captain Jack Harkness (Torchwood)
10. Cael Malloy (The Riches)

7 New Deadly Sins....brings the Catholic church up to 14 Deadly Sins

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 23:12:21 GMT

Vatican Adds Seven New Deadly Sins Including Damaging Environment and Drug Dealing

Tuesday, March 11, 2008
By Richard Owen

ROME — Drug pushers, the obscenely rich, environmental polluters and “manipulative” genetic scientists beware — you may be in danger of losing your mortal soul unless you repent.

After 1,500 years the Vatican has brought the seven deadly sins up to date by adding seven new ones for the age of globalization. The list, published yesterday in L’Osservatore Romano, the Vatican newspaper, came as the Pope deplored the “decreasing sense of sin” in today’s “secularized world” and the falling numbers of Roman Catholics going to confession.

The new deadly sins include polluting, genetic engineering, being obscenely rich, drug dealing, abortion, pedophilia and causing social injustice.

The Catholic Church divides sins into venial, or less serious, sins and mortal sins, which threaten the soul with eternal damnation unless absolved before death through confession and penitence.

It holds mortal sins to be “grave violations of the Ten Commandments and the Beatitudes,” including murder, contraception, abortion, perjury, adultery and lust.

The Catechism of the Catholic Church states that “immediately after death the souls of those who die in a state of mortal sin descend into Hell.”

Although there is no definitive list of mortal sins, many believers accept the broad seven deadly sins or capital vices laid down in the 6th century by Pope Gregory the Great and popularized in the Middle Ages by Dante in "The Inferno": lust, gluttony, avarice, sloth, anger, envy and pride.

Christians are exhorted instead to adhere to the seven holy virtues: chastity, abstinence, temperance, diligence, patience, kindness and humility.

Bishop Gianfranco Girotti, head of the Apostolic Penitentiary, the Vatican body which oversees confessions and plenary indulgences, said after a week-long Lenten seminar for priests that surveys showed 60 percent of Catholics in Italy no longer went to confession.

He said that priests must take account of “new sins which have appeared on the horizon of humanity as a corollary of the unstoppable process of globalization.” Whereas sin in the past was thought of as being an individual matter, it now has “social resonance.”

“You offend God not only by stealing, blaspheming or coveting your neighbor’s wife, but also by ruining the environment, carrying out morally debatable scientific experiments, or allowing genetic manipulations which alter DNA or compromise embryos,” he said.

Bishop Girotti said that mortal sins also included taking or dealing in drugs, and social injustice which caused poverty or “the excessive accumulation of wealth by a few.”

He said that two mortal sins which continued to preoccupy the Vatican were abortion, which offended “the dignity and rights of women,” and pedophilia, which had even infected the clergy itself and so had exposed the “human and institutional fragility of the Church.”

The mass media had “blown up” the issue “to discredit the Church,” but the Church itself was taking steps to deal with it, according to Girotti.

Addressing the Apostolic Penitentiary seminar, the Pope said there was “a certain disaffection” with confession among the faithful. Priests had to show “divine tenderness for penitent sinners” and admit their own failings.

“Those who trust in themselves and in their own merits are, as it were, blinded by their own ‘I’, and their hearts harden in sin. Those who recognize themselves as weak and sinful entrust themselves to God, and from Him obtain grace and forgiveness.”

The Pope also complained that an increasing number of people in the secularized West were “making do without God.”

He said that hedonism and consumerism had even invaded “the bosom of the Church itself, deeply undermining the Christian faith from within, and undermining the lifestyle and daily behavior of believers.”

So I was going to hell with the original 7 deadly sins...but these new ones...I agree with stem cell research (genetic engineering), I'm waiting for gay marriage/relationships to be added and shit I have a First Class Ticket to hell. Well at least then I know I can have fun while I'm still alive, knowing that I'm going to be punished for something I think is right (while the church thinks it's wrong).

So, anyone wanna party?!

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 15:59:02 GMT

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Thoughts...

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 22:13:57 GMT

It's been really weird lately. I've been dreaming of random shit lately, daily stuff like work and friends. Like me getting fired from work and friends being dicks to me or some random shit like that. But that's not the weird part, the weird part is that I've been dreaming in general. See I don't dream. I haven't since I was a kid. And don't comment saying "Oh you do, you just don't remember them.", I actually don't dream. I have proof that I don't dream. I don't get into REM sleep because of a medical condition I have (Sleep Apnea) that causes me to stop breathing right when i get into REM sleep. Now if you didn't know this already, REM sleep is where you dream and since I never really get into REM sleep, I don't dream. But the sole fact that I have been dreaming tells me that I have been getting into REM sleep, even if it's for a little bit. This confuses me a whole lot! I mean I occasionally dream but I have been dreaming like everynight lately. I'm glad that I've been getting that deep of a sleep but yet it scares me because what if I get into that deep of a sleep and my body doesn't wake me up when I stop breathing and I just die? Or is this a good sign and I've grown out of my Sleep Apnea? But from everthing I've read, a person doesn't just grow out of their Sleep Apnea; they have to get a C-PAP machine (a very loud machine that forces air into a person's lungs so that they don't stop breathing in the middle of sleeping) or surgery to correct the problem. Now I've tried a C-PAP machine at Stanford and I can't stand those things. I get clostrophobic with something in my mouth/nose forcing air down my throat. I mean the Stanford people got hella frustrated with me because I kept taking it out because I couldn't sleep with it in my mouth/nose. And since my insurance won't cover my surgery until I have tried the C-PAP machine at home for 30 days, I've been procrastinating getting one. But the fact that I've been dreaming...I don't know what to do anymore.

Just some thoughts I needed to get down. Feel free to ignore, read, and/or comment. I don't care, I just needed to ramble.

~Courtney

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 06:40:06 GMT

for once in my life i have two guys who like me and i like them too. but that's also the problem. i like both of them. i thought i was over my ex when he dumped me for another girl. but just in the past few days he has said so many things i've wished him to say that i sorta wanna go back to him. then there is this new guy. he is a perfect gentleman, he cares about me and how i feel. he has morals and wants to take care of me. but it might not work out because of my best friend and her bf (which is my potential new beau's best friend), who are having relationship problems. i don't know what to do?! should i go with the person i'm comfortable with but has already hurt me? or should i go with this new person and potentially get heartbroken bc our best friends aren't together anymore?

i hate being confused. i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!! i wish something would just go right in my life for once. but y should i wish on something that'll never come true. love has alreadyy proven to me that it hates me.....y should i expect it to change it's mind?

god!!!
i'm fucking up my life...and i don't kno how to fix it since i don't kno how i started to fuck it up!

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 07:28:02 GMT

I'm bored and I barely update this anymore so I decided I should probably update.
So my boyfriend and I mutually decided to break up (sort of). We are going to start over and get to know each other better. I think this is a better alternative than being on a break and having my heart dangling over the edge of a cliff...
My best friend isn't going to move to Oregon (I'm not sure if I've mentioned this) but move to Livermore instead. A hella lot closer than Oregon! =)
Another friend of mine is getting married in May and I seriously couldn't be happier for her. I think she's finally found the perfect guy for her. He makes her happy and can cheer her up when she's mad or sad. Plus he gets along with all of her friends; some of her past boyfriends didn't get along with one or more of her friends.
I'm going to be going to school in Livermore next semester (ugh). I'd rather not be going to school there but it's the only school close to me at the moment so thus there is where I'll be going for Spring Semester.
I'm on worker's comp at work (obviously lol) and they have me doing a really REALLY boring job while my back heals up. I get to look up past saleschecks to see if the customer has picked up their merchandise and if they have (which is 99% of the time) I get to write "Customer picked up same day. Cleared (today's date and my initials)." and there are like 15 pages of saleschecks I have to look up. Fun shit huh? Plus I'm closer to the Store Manager Suzanne (a fucking bitch) whom I just love! (<--extreme sarcasm) I would rather be in the stock room hanging out with all the guys who are fucking hilarious, but noooo I can't lift anything so thus in the office I go. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
I go to Hawaii in less than 24 days. WOOHOO!! If you don't know of haven't guessed already, I've never been to Hawaii and I can't wait to go! The one thing that sucks is that I'm going the week before finals and I won't be in class for the study materials my teacher will probably give me. Oh well, this is when my family planned on going to Hawaii and I'm not going to stay home just because of that. Not unless they give me like three grand to pay for everything I'll be missing and what I'll need for the week my family will be out of the state. lol. Like the California Educational System has that kind of money lying around. rofl

Well that's all that has been happening in my humdrum life. Hope you got a good laugh out of it. I know I did! Well I think I'm going to go off to bed. Nighty Night all!!

~Courtz